8 Months

Sweet baby Nathan,

Happy 8 months to you in Heaven. It's comforting to think that you are in the most wonderful place imaginable and know no pain or fears. While it's comforting to know that, it's also still depressing. You should be down here with us and celebrating all of the milestones that should have occurred during your first year on earth. We look forward to the day when we can celebrate them with you in Heaven.

It's Father's Day this weekend, so it's another weekend we're not looking forward to much. I think it'll be an extra tough one on your dad this year since he has to spend Father's Day each year without his dad and now he also has to spend it without his son. Be sure to give your Grandpa Tom an extra hug this weekend for your dad. He always talks about how your grandpa is taking care of you up in Heaven just like he took care of your dad down here on earth.

It's hard for me to describe to you how much your dad loves you. There's not many dads who would take a bucket and some water up to the cemetery so that they could clean the surface of a grave.  He even took some clippers up so that he could cut back the grass around it so that it would never again grow over your stone. With every thing he does, he includes you.  He proudly talks about you to his new coworkers, not afraid of how they'll react when he tells them that his son died 8 months ago now.  When he goes camping, he includes you by taking a match holder with your name on it. He never leaves you behind. I wish I could have watched you grow up with your dad down here.

Know that we love you, sweet baby, and you are always on our minds and in our hearts.

Fly high, baby boy, fly high.