...and I'm still pregnant. I had my first serious meltdown Friday night when I was certain that this baby was no longer living. I went to bed believing that we would have to go to L & D in the morning to deliver this baby, but thankfully I was awoken by somebody kicking. I wish I could be as confident as all the others posting pictures ALL over the internet about their bellies, but I'm realistic. I'm not being burned again. A picture here or there, maybe, but I'm not one for attention anyways.
11 weeks left.
77 days left.
One day at a time...
Hands
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
25 Weeks Pregnant
I'm back. I skipped last week and I also haven't posted about Nathan's one year birthday yet, but it's in the works. I'm finding it hard to come up with the words I'd like him to hear. One year later and I'm still speechless.
Anyways, 25 weeks pregnant today. 84 days left. 12 weeks left. I'm celebrating every time I hit a 0 in my countdown, which means my next celebration is at 80 days. It's the small things. Baby boy is doing well. He's still breech so my bladder and cervix get quite the beating during the workday. There are moments when my eyes start to water because he hits my bladder and I am unable to go to the bathroom at that moment due to a meeting or something else. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I love every kick and punch. Maybe this baby's not destined to hang out in my right ribs where Nathan spent a majority of his time. My next ultrasound is in 2 weeks from Thursday then I have my glucose test the following Tuesday. Since I'm following a low carb/high protein diet, I don't expect to have any problem with that test.
Aside from buying some clothes, I haven't done anything. I keep avoiding the walk in closet. There is so much stuff that was just thrown in there after we lost Nathan that I'm not really looking forward to sorting through it all. Eventually I'll have to get organized again. My goal is to have that all organized by Christmas since I'll be delivering 2.5 weeks after that.
A week from today would have been my due date with my last pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage back in March. Crazy to think I would have been near the finish, but happy to be pregnant with this little boy.
Anyways, 25 weeks pregnant today. 84 days left. 12 weeks left. I'm celebrating every time I hit a 0 in my countdown, which means my next celebration is at 80 days. It's the small things. Baby boy is doing well. He's still breech so my bladder and cervix get quite the beating during the workday. There are moments when my eyes start to water because he hits my bladder and I am unable to go to the bathroom at that moment due to a meeting or something else. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I love every kick and punch. Maybe this baby's not destined to hang out in my right ribs where Nathan spent a majority of his time. My next ultrasound is in 2 weeks from Thursday then I have my glucose test the following Tuesday. Since I'm following a low carb/high protein diet, I don't expect to have any problem with that test.
Aside from buying some clothes, I haven't done anything. I keep avoiding the walk in closet. There is so much stuff that was just thrown in there after we lost Nathan that I'm not really looking forward to sorting through it all. Eventually I'll have to get organized again. My goal is to have that all organized by Christmas since I'll be delivering 2.5 weeks after that.
A week from today would have been my due date with my last pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage back in March. Crazy to think I would have been near the finish, but happy to be pregnant with this little boy.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Growth Ultrasound
We had our growth ultrasound this morning and baby boy is doing well. My diet must be working as well because he's now around the 57% percentile and weighing in around 1 lb 6 oz currently. I wonder if he'll be my normal sized baby?? Doctor is happy with how he's looking and measuring and my weight. I still haven't gained more than a lb or so in the past 4 weeks. During my ultrasound, I had the tech check my cervical length because I've been having dreams about it shortening and it turns out my dreams were completely wrong, my cervix is still BEYOND long. Here's a picture from this morning's ultrasound. Baby boy always has his hands by his face.
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
October 8, 2013
This day, last year, was the last time that Chris and I saw Nathan alive on an ultrasound. He was big, but perfectly healthy and constantly moving as usual. There was no indication that just two days later we would lose him forever. Sigh...
Love you, baby boy.
Love you, baby boy.
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
23 Weeks Pregnant
14 weeks to go until we meet this baby.
98 days until we meet this baby.
We are FINALLY into the double digits for days! Hooray!
This baby is finally starting to make his presence known. Since I have an anterior placenta, I don't feel some of his kicks and punches, but if he's hanging out low then I feel EVERYTHING. If he isn't hanging out low, I panic about not being able to feel him move. The only thing worse than having an anterior placenta is having an anterior placenta after you've lost a child and the first sign was lack of movement. Talk about crazy. I'm hoping as he continues to get bigger that I'll be able to start feeling his movements up high so that I don't have a freak out every couple of days. I put away the doppler once I started to feel him move so now I depend on his movement to keep me from losing it.
My monthly ultrasound is Thursday morning and I hope there's no surprises during it. He was measuring close to the 90th percentile last ultrasound so it will be interesting to see if my change in diet had any impact on that. I don't think it will since I just grow big babies, but who knows. Hopefully we also catch him during one of his busy periods since for a majority of our ultrasounds, he's been sleeping. That's where he differs from his big brother. Nathan couldn't sit still during ultrasounds or ever, actually.
Nathan received a gift for his birthday in the mail from my friend, Jenn. Very awesome.
98 days until we meet this baby.
We are FINALLY into the double digits for days! Hooray!
This baby is finally starting to make his presence known. Since I have an anterior placenta, I don't feel some of his kicks and punches, but if he's hanging out low then I feel EVERYTHING. If he isn't hanging out low, I panic about not being able to feel him move. The only thing worse than having an anterior placenta is having an anterior placenta after you've lost a child and the first sign was lack of movement. Talk about crazy. I'm hoping as he continues to get bigger that I'll be able to start feeling his movements up high so that I don't have a freak out every couple of days. I put away the doppler once I started to feel him move so now I depend on his movement to keep me from losing it.
My monthly ultrasound is Thursday morning and I hope there's no surprises during it. He was measuring close to the 90th percentile last ultrasound so it will be interesting to see if my change in diet had any impact on that. I don't think it will since I just grow big babies, but who knows. Hopefully we also catch him during one of his busy periods since for a majority of our ultrasounds, he's been sleeping. That's where he differs from his big brother. Nathan couldn't sit still during ultrasounds or ever, actually.
Nathan received a gift for his birthday in the mail from my friend, Jenn. Very awesome.
Monday, October 6, 2014
October
Did you know that aside from being Breast Cancer Awareness Month, October is also Pregnancy, Infant, and Child Loss Awareness Month? I found this article about how to honor your friend's child that they lost and I think it's pretty informative for those looking for ideas on how to honor their child.
http://stillstandingmag.com/2014/10/10-ways-honor-friends-child-died-october/
http://stillstandingmag.com/2014/10/10-ways-honor-friends-child-died-october/
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