Although we now have TJ here with us, I still feel the same as I did after losing Nathan:
- Hearing about people getting pregnant easily irritates me
- Hearing about successful births irritate me (how ugly is this feeling? I hate it.)
- Hearing about minute pregnancy issues irritates me
I hate feeling this way, just like I did prior to having TJ. Although these feelings have become easier to manage, they're still there, just not as prominent as before.
Lately, I've had the strong urge to have another baby right NOW. It's crazy, but with my problem that leads us to having to use IVF to get pregnant, time is not on our side. It's been weighing on my mind a lot lately, and I saw this blog post this morning that describes it PERFECTLY. I felt like I was reading my diary as I read the post. It sucks that she's in the same predicament as me, but it's comforting to know what I'm feeling is normal.
http://stillstandingmag.com/2015/07/just-want-secondary-infertility-stillbirth/
Happy 21 (say what?!) months to our baby boy in Heaven! We miss you and love you with everything we have. Continue to fly high.
Xoxo
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